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Wednesday, October 17, 2007

Family Outing

Before i start let me say HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY GRANDMA!! OH YA AND PIK SAN. Happy birthday to you guys! OK, so now we're done with this. Let me continue with the little family trip at about noon at Leisure Mall to celebrate my grandma's birthday. See im a good "cucu" to my grandma. Just joking. I was invited to go eat at the delicious as usual Esquire Kitchen. Sorry no pictures cos of some technical problems. Anyway, we walked around leisure mall and left very shortly after that after buying some shoes.

The little culprit

The expensive Spiderman book the little culprit forced his mom to buy

Eh the book is like Rm 6.90 leh and then its like less than 10 pages. Now, you'll see the power of kids. Haha. As we was walking around Leisure Mall looking for shoes, look what i saw. It may not be new but hey, i seldom go out nowadays.

The Digi Man

The Digi Man strikes another pose

Managed to snap this picture of these cute things at Baleno before the salesgirl said a thing. Haha

And so we went home after getting their shoes. On the way home, my little cousin brother treated us to buckets of laughter. He talks like a 10 year old kid even though he's a 3 year old kid. We went back home to my uncle house and proceeded to cut the cake. I found an interesting medal within my cousin sister's collection of gymnastic medal.

WAH, pingat emas MSSM

Juara berpasukan gimnastik 2007 MSSM

And so my cousin is a national champion for gymnastics. Wah bangga gila. Haha

Now here comes the interesting part. My aunt ask me to tell some story to her son, as in narrate from a story and so my little cousin brother chose his book. So here goes the story of Little Quack. Enjoy =P

The story of Little Quack

And so the story starts

Widdle, Waddle, Paddle, Piddle and Little Quack

Little Quack talking to his mom

And so mama told her kids that they were too big for to stay in the nest and it was time to learn how to swim.

The story continues in the same boring way. The pictures are too cute to resist anyway. Haha

Little Quack and Piddle

Piddle jumps into the water

Little Quack scared

Giving encouragement to Little Quack

And so Little Quack jumps into the water

And so all the ducks are in the water. The End ?

Little culprit finding another victim to read him Three Little Pigs. Haha

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Tuesday, October 16, 2007

Rusted

So now i have got things to do than blogging but still here i am still down in front of my retarded pc and typing here. There is like about 30+/- days before SPM and i've procrastinated and not study till now. I feel rusty, like an old engine who wants to start but just cannot start. I think there something wrong with my spark plug in my head - just like one in the car which gives the car the spark and starts the car.

A rusted not working old spark plug in me

An old car albiet im still with wheels and maybe a windscreen

Without it, i can't seem to start my engine in me. I have not been using it for a long time. I took 30 days of intensive to prepare for PMR and now i think its about time to start doing the same for SPM. SPM seem to be the only topic for people to talk to me nowadays and im getting bored about it. Everytime someone starts a conversation it would be like :-

Apek : Wah, big boy adi now.. this year old old?
Mutu : 17
Apek : Oh, so this year SPM lar izzit?
Mutu : Ya ( sudah tau nak tanya lagi )
Apek : So this year study hard. Dun play so much adi.
Mutu: Oh, ok.

I'm getting so damn bored with such conversations. I bet most of those who've been through form 5 would have the same experience. Be it your family member or friends, they all still ask the same questions and give the same reply. Life is so mundane with all these questions. At least i have a interesting add maths teacher who gives me a different advice. (Not Fam Wei Wei kay )

AM teacher : So you give up on add maths adi lar?
Mutu : kinda lor, oni pass 1 term.
AM teacher : Good la like this. Go concentrate on other subjects. Add maths not important to you aso. You not good in maths anyway, so no need to waste time. * sniggers *
Mutu : @.@ totally agree!

I like talking to people who are blunt and straight forward. They don't waste time telling people a whole lot of crap before getting to their point. I don't get hurt by people who tell me things straight in my face. In fact, i rather like it this way. So next time when you talk to me, don't beat around the bush. Just tell me what you want to say. I'm a person who accepts cold hard facts. No offence, but to those people who like to hide behind their lies and crap - u better stay away from me.

Haih, so SPM is about a month away and here i am crapping around doing everything but study hard. Man.. Gotta go now, need to fix my spark plug and get it working very very very soon.

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Monday, October 15, 2007

Soledad

Soledad. So what does soledad means ? It means solitude in spanish. I got this word from a title of an emo song of Westlife. The song got into my brain and kept playing, playing and playing in my brain. Its kinda stuck in my brain. So im writing a post to pour it out of me and maybe pass this to someone else?? Haha. Its an old song which im not so sure whether i heard it before but here's Soledad by Westlife to you guys. Go download it if you want to hear. Trust me. You wont be dissapointed.

Soledad

If only you could see the tears in the world you left behind
If only you could heal my heart just one more time
Even when I close my eyes
There's an image of your face
And once again I come to realise
You're a loss I can't replace

Soledad
It's a keeping for the lonely
Since the day that you were gone
Why did you leave me
Soledad
In my heart you were the only
And your memory lives on
Why did you leave me
Soledad

Walking down the streets of Nothingville
Where our love was young and free
Can't believe just what an empty place
It has come to beI would give my life away
If it could only be the same
Cause I can't still the voice inside of me
That is calling out your name

Soledad
It's a keeping for the lonely
Since the day that you were gone
Why did you leave me
Soledad
In my heart you were the only
And your memory lives on
Why did you leave me
Soledad

Time will never change the things you told me
After all we're meant to be love will bring us back to you and me
If only you could see

Soledad
It's a keeping for the lonely
Since the day that you were gone
Why did you leave me
Soledad
In my heart you were the only
And your memory live on
Why did you leave me
Soledad

So here's Soledad.

Ever wondered when does a song sound to best to you? Ever wondered why some songs sound nice at a paticular time and then sound like any other song at other times? Well, that because our experience, thinking and enviroment affects us and how a song sound to someone at a particular time. Yeah, Soledad sounds special and nice to me because im practically living in solitude. Would it sound special and nice to you? I guess that's up to ur experience, thinking and enviroment you are in now.

Now there's another old song here that tells of my feeling right now. It sounds nice and meaningful to me now because im feeling exactly like the song right now. Ever heard I can't hate you anymore by Nick Lachey before? It was written right after his divorce. Kinda the same feeling as me now. So here you go, I can't hate you anymore By Nick Lachey

I can't hate you anymore

An empty room can be so deafening,
The silence makes you wanna scream,
It drives you crazy.
I chased away the shadows of your name,
And burned the picture in a frame,
But it couldn't save me.

And how could we quit something we never even tried,
Well you still can't tell me why.

We built it up,
To watch it fall.
Like we meant nothing at all.
I gave and gave the best of me,
But couldn't give you what you need.
You walked away,You stole my life,
Just to find what you're looking for.
But no matter how I try,
I can't hate you anymore....
I can't hate you anymore.

You're not the person that you used to be,
The one I want who wanted me,
And that's a shame but,
There's only so many tears that you can cry.
Before it drains the light right from your eyes,
And I can't go on that way.
And so I'm letting go of everything we were,
It doesn't mean it doesn't hurt.

We built it up,
To watch it fall.
Like we meant nothing at all.
I gave and gave the best of me,
But couldn't give you what you need.
You walked away,
You stole my life,
Just to find what you're looking for.
But no matter how I try,
I can't hate you anymore.

Sometimes you hold so tight,
It slips right through your hands.
Will I ever understand?

We built it up,
To watch it fall.
Like we meant nothing at all.
I gave and gave the best of me,
But couldn't give you what you need.
You walked away,
You stole my life,
Just to find what you're looking for.
But no matter how I try,
I can't hate you anymore [x2]

Every word in this song reflects a part of me right now. Right now i'm Emo and thats me. Anyway, both are nice songs to go by and so i hope you liked it.

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Wednesday, October 10, 2007

Once Upon A Time Part 2

From the skies above,
God shined,
And the boy saw,
what was hidden in the dark.

Disappointed,
He asked,
Answers came by,
Albiet in the most hurtful way.

His heart dispearsed,
Into millions of pieces,
He backed off,
Fearing the worst

The worst came by,
He waded through it,
Alone,
Hanging onto the light he see's.

The girl came back,
Soothed his heart,
Made up for it,
As a friend.

It was never quite enough,
For anyone,
But for him,
Enough to cherish and savour.

He didn't want to know,
More than what he know's now,
For it was vain,
And of no meaning.

He left it to be as it is,
Hoping for the best,
As he was powerless,
To control fate.

The future shines,
Bleak and endless,
Left alone,
To fend for himself.

As for the girl,
He wished her the best,
He will still be there,
Whenever she needs him.

He ungraspes his hand,
Reluctanly letting go,
His arms,
However ever ready to take her back.

Anytime,
Anywhere,
He vouched for her,
A promise made unto time.

Never to be forgotten,
Feelings will remain,
Carved deep inside,
The deepest region in his heart

He left,
So as not to bother and disturb,
The peace and serenity,
She had always wanted.

He prayed,
That she'll live happily,
Albiet,
Without him,

His feelings remain true,
He wants her to know,
He treasures every moment,
He has ever shared with her.

He left,
To somewhere,
For her sake,
His last words for her.

“只要你能愉快”

And he left coming back when she ever needs him.

The End

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Friday, October 5, 2007

Once Upon A Time

Once upon a time,

There was a boy and girl,
They've knew each other since the times,
And yet nothing special happened,

Then came a day,
There the boy finally opened his eyes,
He saw her beauty,
From the outside right to the inside.

He saw her kindness,
Her compassions,
Her interests,
Her toughness.

Her love,
Her smile,
But most importantly,
her heart.

Her beauty did not strike him,
Her heart did,
For it was filled with love,
Love only seen in God.

All he saw was her,
He liked what he saw,
He smiled like a small boy in the shadows,
And then the trouble started.

A feeling like never before came,
He missed someone for the first time,
He had butterflies in his stomach when he saw her,
He couldn't speak when he saw her.

A normally cool headed boy,
Would now do things never imagined,
He would take secret glances,
He longed to see her.

No longer able to take it anymore,
He confessed,
Taken by suprise,
She said "no".

He did not give up,
For he knew she was different,
Someone special,
Someone who lights up his life,

He worked towards her heart,
In the process,
Doing things he felt stupid last time,
She seem to oblige.

As time passeth,
They got closer,
More than friends,
But still behind the lines of her heart.

Then came a day,
Everything changed,
She turned her back,
And he was confused.

He did his best to find out,
What caused her to change,
he saw things and people,
And yet would not believe.

He choose to have faith,
To believe all she had told him,
His mind told him it was lies,
His heart told him to preservere.

He does not know,
What caused her to change,
He hopes to know soon,
But so far to no avail.

He's in a state of confusion now,
Trying to find out what happened,
So far it has come to naught,
He hopes it will change.

To be continued......

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Grey Skies, My Visions Blurred

Friends. I have a few of them. Now as i look back and review my life, i don't have as many friends as i seem to have. Everything does not seem as it is. Life isn't a bed of roses. I have run out of words to describe what is happening in my life right now. I don't like the life which i'm living now. How i wish to escape to somewhere where no one know's me. That would be a far cry from the shitty life im going through. Life is weird - Don't you think so? Last year, i thought that was so far the most terrible year of my life. Now as i take a glance to the back, how it seems kinda rosy compared to the thing i've got to deal with now.

Coming back to my title, yeah as you read in the previous post you'll know what am i thinking right now. I kind of don't seem get it. I treat everyone equal. Everyone gets the same treatment from me. As long as you are someone i know and have some form of conversation with, i would consider you my friend. I don't talk bad, spoil people's image or backstab people to say the least. I don't do all these things. They seem to be out of my vocabulary but yet being unprovoked i would get some very bad treatment from people. So i think now, i'll have to narrow down my perspective. There seems to be a problem with people. They like to make enjoy their life by making people suffer. To tell the truth, i've lost all the trust i have in all the people around me. Everything seems so fake and surreal to me. Everyone seems to be a stage actor. They act out their character in school and live another life outside. I don't do that. I can't go over my conscience if i ever am suppose to do that. My life in school is the same carbon copy of my life outside it. Sometimes i wonder if i should treat anyone as best as i can. They say if you do good you'll get rewarded. I don't think so i want the reward they're giving out to people for being a good person.

The world now seems to grey to me. Nothing is right or wrong - they're just grey. Who are we to judge if someone is wrong or right? God tells us not to judge people or God will judge and deal with us. What about me ? I'm not perfect - far far away from perfect i would say. I judge people sometimes but i don't most of the time. Look at the people around me. I have people who are as clean as angels and some as filthy as flies and yet they are all what i would consider friends. i treat them all the same. Yet some people who i consider sort of closer to does something hideous to me and that is the utmost pain.

I'm not born with good eye sight. I cannot see through the lies and deep thoughts of people. I thank God however for giving me a heart which can feel and hear all. It doesnt matter if i cannot see, as long as i can feel i'll know what is happening. So to all those liars and hypocrytes out there - I may not see through you and expose you, at least deep down inside i know the true person you are.

After typing so much, nothing seem to make much sense. Its just grey.

Grey skies, my visions blurred

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Rantings

Before i start, please bear with me...yeah its gonna be littered with shit which wont even understand.

What is friends for?? i just found out the TRUE meaning of friendship. Its is to get to know the person well and then let them backstab you in the most hurtful possible manner. Yeah, tats what friendship is for - to backstab yourself hurt. Now i can see why people who live on their own is much happier than most of those hypocrytes who call themselves friends to other people. Now that this shit has happened, i think i wanna live all alone in the artic. I dun wanna give a shit to what the hell is gonna happen to all you assholes. I can just pray to God all the time - at least he doesn't backstab me... To those fucking assholes beware - im gonna backstab you in the most hurtful way if you ever come near me. Im gonna make u feel like this fucking world is impossible to live in. Yeah, im gonna stab u and let u bleed but not die. I'll make u suffer all the pain u'll ever know. So just fuck off my life. DUN FOR FUCK SAKE EVER COME NEAR ME AGAIN. I HAVE THE CAPABILITIES TO DO THINGS WHICH EVEN SCARE THE SHIT OUT OF ME WHEN I COME TO NOE THAT I AM ABLE TO DO ALL THESE THINGS. Yeah, i can do terrible things when provoked. i just choose not to all the time because i just do not like hurting people. How many of u think u noe me?? U have not seem my past...u DO NOT FUCKING NOE ME!!!!!! EVEN THOUGH SOME WHO HAVE LIVE IN THE PAST DO NOT FUCKING NOE ME...... Do you even noe what is the most terrible thing i've ever done. U wont want to noe.Yeah it will shock the hell out of u if u come to noe of it. From now on, I'm gonna guard myself agaist this shitty people. Im gonna ship u out of my life straight from now. So if u find me not toking to u, dun ask me why or i will make u cry and feel that u should have kept ur fucking mouth shut in the first place.

Yeah, we all like frens. But wad if they are fucking assholes or leopards?? i rather be alone. To you guys out there, BEWARE of who you make frens with. Look left, look right, look up and down , look 360 degrees...the person next to u and the 1 u treat as ur close and best friend might be the one who'll bring u down crashing to hell. I have not backstab any 1 of my frens - yes not even once but yeah im not sure why someone wanna take their knife and put it my bag. God knows and may he punish u that you and make you suffer. I dun care.

Pls no fucking comments on this post or im gonna make ur life miserable like mine now. Btw, i wanna say thank you to the fucking bitch for doing that to me. At least i din lose that much now compared to if you want to backstab me in future!!

I give thanks to the Lord for showing me what is really happening. I thank you for your grace and mercy. Amen.

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